~ I'm lost ~

I don’t know how to tell, may be I’m wrong with my own perception.

Actually I’m with him all the time, but the relationship is not as it should be. There is a gab both distance and mind. Can even say - One party threaded it as break but the other party treated it still on. I know I’m wrong to be the one who never go to solve this problem. Am I scared on the result? Or I just want to remain it unchanged? Never end, but at least there is someone caring on me, all the time although he is not beside me. May be I don’t want to be alone and I am use to it, every time every way, he is there. Nine years, if that never happen, as our plan…get marriage next year! I found the world is playing on me, my love and my family. I don’t care it is right or wrong, I don’t want to go and solve all the things as I don’t know the way to solve. Just let it grown with the god wish to!

I’m not with him, never! I though he is just playing on, just finding someone to fill up his free time over here. The time period is short, and he never mention at all. I’m not serious on it because it is not possible. All the time in my mind, it is good or better for us to remain the relationship as now, as a web closed friend because my sense telling me that he treated me as a friend, may be a little bit better than a normal friend. But =I'm Done= prove all this wrong! I’m shock until he told me that he is serious. Instance…chatting with me only when he is online with some other stuff, I never think that he will purposely go online to meet me. In the sentence he wrote, the way he talk, nothing show that is possible. He don’t know how to express the feeling? Or I'm not good in sense? Is too late...

I really don’t know how to forecast, the result is in adverse. I can’t find the reason; I don’t know how to explain. I’m stupid! I'm lost!

~~~~Gu Zap ####

The small little, cute and crazy gal saying that! She complaint that my blog is lack of happiness, and my description on green express Gu Zap!

This is the reason, may be causing me have a problem in that relationship. I can only accept what I think should be in the first place and it should be, and will only make the situation right if I can take it as Right!

Am I wrong? Many people telling me that I’m right in the way I define something or explain a case. However, it is not because it really true, is just the way I arguing it and then end up I’m Gu Zap. I could accept the comment as I know I am, in some where but I’m welcome someone to prove me wrong, my experiences prove me that my thinking and perception is always right, my philosophy helps me on my success. Is the input helping in the process to output with the excellent system? Maybe yes and may be no, different people may have different views. As long as the probabilities is higher, I’ll remain Gu Zap?

His birthday

Is his birthday tomorrow?
Who? Johnson lar !!!

We celebrated at Redbox … …fun and enjoy!

Haha, cutting cake is always my job, I have been trained in office every months! That <) one call Seafood Udon - is cute but not nice at all..haha, luckily I didn't order this.

Em, actually not much to talk about, I just want to post the photos, that is why this post occur.

Em.... may be.... or ....

let me introduce the gang: the baby boy-Daniel, follow by his 'mom' (as ppl say)-Joan, then the HR group - Sam & LP, follow by the Instrument-Carmen, who teach me a lot about engineering.

I'm very happy to work together with you all and hope it will carry on...

** Wait lar! **

Now only I know she can speak well mandarin. So funny! Why act like a banana? Thought others can’t speak English. Kee Siao!!!! We are not understand, whether this is your first job or you really fresh in corporate life or may be you are like that, but you give people very bad impression.

You make people angry on this – “I ask you print, you print lar” ! Hey gal, people not sitting here just to re-print your things and some more this is the second time, and when you ask for help, please ask politely. Okay, need my help, WAIT lar!

Chi XiN~~~!!!

Hahaha, I just can't control myself to laugh and laugh after seeing the chi xin boy scoring people at his blog: ''she only know how to sit there n eat n shit there ... fucking disgusting person. fuck her always, dun even get near me, BITCH!!!'' Yar yar yar boy, 忍一时，风平浪静，退一步，海阔天空.
I know you are very angry when you post it, that's the reason the title names 'Pls don't read this' but don't know why I feel it very funny, may be I try to imagine the face u present at that time. Em.. like Taz! But luckily u know how to cold down and took a more optimistic view and not spin around!